Dear friend 🌹,
I know you’re in pain and I’m so sorry. You feel like there is a dark cloud over you, lurking. No matter what you do, it feels like you just can’t catch a break. For every two steps forward, you take one back. You feel so unappreciated, invisible, and dismissed. Everyone is take take take and no one ever stopped to ask you how you are doing or if you need help.
You can’t breath. You can’t think. You don’t know what’s going to happen from moment to moment. You’re always on edge. Feel like a ticking time bomb. Your life feels like a puzzle and all the pieces are on the table scattered. You don’t even have the frame together, let alone at least two pieces in the center. My dearest of friends I’m sorry.
Your feelings are absolutely valid. What you are feeling is right. There isn’t anything wrong with you. All you want someone to do is say thank you or ask are you ok. A simple kind gesture makes all the difference in how your day will go. For, you always make sure everyone else is good.
I’m here to tell you, it will get better. You deserve all the happiness and joy you desire. You will laugh and smile again. You will have fun filled days again. You have the power and control of your happiness. You may bend but you won’t break. You have come this far and endured, you will come out stronger and tougher. Let this be a lesson so in the future you won’t bend as easily and definitely won’t break.
You have the right to say NO!!!!!. You have the right to decline an invitation or offer. Something as simple as “you know I appreciate your offer and kindness of thinking of me, but I’m not in a good space right now so I’ll catch you next time.” Or if someone is asking something of you and its not in your spirit to fulfill, “I appreciate your trust in me but that isn’t something I’m able to do at this time.”
Make yourself a priority, create boundaries, and focus on yourself. Don’t feel bad or guilty about saying “I’m not ok right now and I need to get better.” Taking a step back away from everyone and everything is something we all need to do from time to time.
Take your life and happiness back. Get well soon. Get happier soon. And trust me we all will love the happier YOU.
You are worth it. You deserve it.
Be you so you can be free.