I’ve given up on the idea of getting a tattoo. Unless I have an epiphany going through menopause. LOL. But when I was younger I thought of getting something small on the inside of my wrist like a heart, butterfly, or an affirmation.
When I was a teenager it was the it thing to get an affirmation tattoo in some form of another language. I always thought that was intriguing. Not many will know what it meant unless you told them.
I knew if I did want to get a tattoo it had to be some place I could cover up because I knewI was going into the corporate world. At the end of the day I settled on not getting one.
I have the personality to get bored and tired of the same ole things. So having something permanent would have urked my last nerve. Lastly, I have this knack for wanting to be different on purpose. Because it was the it thing I decided to not get one as well.
I love looking at others tattoos. I can learn a lot about their creative side. What they hold dear to their heart. And just the sheer art of them are amazing.
The first that sticks out in my mind is navigating my mother side of the family not liking my father. Watching my mom twist herself into a pretzel to please both was very heart wrenching for me to see. Which, in turn, showed me how to shape, navigate, and mold certain relationships. As a mature woman now, I can see how that shaped my views on relationships and why I self isolate a lot.
The next would be when my father passed away. I was only 21 years old. I had no idea what I was doing or how I should go about the legality work. My mother had ultimately chose her family as the pressure became too much to navigate both. So by the time of his passing they were separated. This experience really showed me the true meaning of advocate for yourself. My family didn’t even attend my fathers funeral. That showed me just what they thought of me, my father, and what they were willing to do to show me how exactly they felt. Going forward I can see where my trust issues and being guarded came from.
I can say if you want to know the now, go back to before to see how your views, opinions, and thoughts were shaped when you were younger. It’s truly eye opening. That’s where the healing begins. #daily prompt